In a chronic bad holiday mood

For the past 4 years, the holiday season has found me habititually either starting a bad relationship, being in a bad relationship, getting out of a bad relationship or dealing with the aftermath of a bad relationship. One thing is quite clear to me; I am good at the not-so-good relationships. I know exactly where to find them and I'm the first one in line to sign up for the adventure. If a second round of ugliness is offered, I jump on it like it's the last train out of singledome. I am not going to do that next year. Somehow I am going to learn how to say no and be alone if that's what it takes. Being alone is where I end up anyway.