Letting Life Pass Me By

Lately Sundays have brought thoughts of Dow and all of her wonderfulness back to me. Before I even got out of my groggy state this morning images of her stirring the gravy before Sunday lunch came back to me. Why is it that some days the feeling of someone being missing is so strong and other times days can go by without so much as a thought in their direction? I'm ashamed of those days when my emotion is turned off and the only person I think about is myself. The day before Dow died I was planning on going to see her but instead I got busy and put it off for the next day that wasn't to be hers. The guilt still lingers even today because I realize I tend to live my life that way. Opportunities are passed by because of laziness. Valuable time spent with the people I love is wasted because of selfishness. I take for granted my family, my friends, my health, and the blessings in my life far too often. Today I will make an effort to jump on opportunity, to give my full attention to others and to be thankful for everything I have.

Walk and Wag

Cyn and Zula, Monti and I, & Lisa and Bitty at the Walk and Wag this morning. Dogs of every kind were out strutting their stuff to raise money for a new Humane Society building. (Check out Monti trying to get at Bitty)

yuck yuck yuck

Today has been hideous from the start and I'm about to break. The limit of what I can take has been surpassed letting me know that I have got trade my passive behaviors in for some provocativeness. The morning students have already sensed anger and frustration from my corner as well as the agency dude that called me Ms. Swanson. I am ugly inside and it's leaking out.

It's out!

This blog is for you, WanTawn. So, the secret is out. Mom and dad know that I've got a man. I'm sure I'll be getting a phone call or two inquiring as to whether I have my head on straight. Maybe I do ask for it. At least this is all my doing... there is no one to blame for introducing us. (Cynthia can breathe a sigh of relief) I have a sneaking suspicion that she caught some flak for the whole Gus situation because she introduced us. I'm quite uninspired to blog and about to fall off my chair from pure tiredness. Hope you are happy Tawn... I'll try to do better.